And relax

Finally, I can see a light at the end of the tunnel.  Stronger painkillers, a fantastic night’s sleep – so very, very healing.  I’m not saying that there isn’t any pain any more, but I feel much more able to cope with it.  Normally, I wouldn’t post on Shabbat, but I feel that this is a time to celebrate and look forward and share.  I am going to go swimming after shul, get some exercise and also sit in the jacuzzi to relax my muscles, which have been so very, very tense over the past couple of weeks.  I have an MRI scan on Monday and I’m going to organsie some physio, now that the pain is bearable.

I think I’ve also been tense because I’ve been against the clock on getting my conversion essays finalised in time, plus the piece for the shul newsletter, etc.  All of those tasks are now finished, thankfully, and I can look forward to my date with the Rabbinic Board, the mikveh and my Admission to Judaism ceremony in shul on Shabbat Chanukkah II.  It is all becoming very real.  I am so very, very excited that I can’t quite believe it is happening.  I can also see though that once I’m ‘in’ I will be asked to take on a lot of new responsibilities within the shul, which is going through quite a bit of a change at the moment – lots of new members, changes to the Council and so on.  This is fine, but also quite daunting, as people are going to turn to me for assistance.

True to form of course, I always seem to do everything in my life so that people think I am the font of all knowledge!  Still, there are some fantastic members to turn to if I get out of my depth! And I have the love and support of some wonderful people in my life.  What more could I need?

But you know what? The thing I am truly looking forward to is wrapping myself in my tallit each Shabbat.  Not so long now.

Shabbat Shalom.

[The above image from the website of Claude Riedel, who makes beautiful ner tamids - see here].